(That's because I was a ditz and didn't have it set up right, it should be findable now. >_>)
I appreciate the fact that you decided to say anything at all, and are willing to give me a chance. I'm aware it's a problem that I have -- that I do find it difficult to get into things when there's a more chaotic feel to them, and I can fret more over detail than a lot of other people, which can bring about a clash in playing style, and it can lead to being more drained than finding a "happy" solution. I know specifically with some of our plots -- and I've brought up my issues with them elsewhere -- this really is reaching an unhappy place, so if there's a way to meet in the middle over things rather than being on one extreme or the other - that's usually what I try to look for.
It's been significantly worse in these past six months, but it's something that's always been there, in a sense -- and I hate that it's causing a problem. What I really want is to have significant CR development and the enjoyment of building bridges and seeing where they lead, even if I don't have the easiest character to do that with. So it's a matter of figuring out exactly ... how to compromise and relax without letting go completely of how I define myself as a RPer, and what enjoying that actually means.
If you'd like to talk about this more privately, or if you have any suggestions, you're welcome to ping me whenever you have the time, you know <3! Thank you again.
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I appreciate the fact that you decided to say anything at all, and are willing to give me a chance. I'm aware it's a problem that I have -- that I do find it difficult to get into things when there's a more chaotic feel to them, and I can fret more over detail than a lot of other people, which can bring about a clash in playing style, and it can lead to being more drained than finding a "happy" solution. I know specifically with some of our plots -- and I've brought up my issues with them elsewhere -- this really is reaching an unhappy place, so if there's a way to meet in the middle over things rather than being on one extreme or the other - that's usually what I try to look for.
It's been significantly worse in these past six months, but it's something that's always been there, in a sense -- and I hate that it's causing a problem. What I really want is to have significant CR development and the enjoyment of building bridges and seeing where they lead, even if I don't have the easiest character to do that with. So it's a matter of figuring out exactly ... how to compromise and relax without letting go completely of how I define myself as a RPer, and what enjoying that actually means.
If you'd like to talk about this more privately, or if you have any suggestions, you're welcome to ping me whenever you have the time, you know <3! Thank you again.